hello blog, im back again (:

life is like a roller coaster these day.

college life.

SUPER STRESSFUL. lecturers will out of sudden say : ok test next week. WALAO. at least during highschool, you will get informed months ago? i miss the days in catholic high school, with super awesome nasi lemak, cheap foods, yoyo ice and THAT AWESOMEEEE BURGER! 

but, you can meet new friends in college (:

met a few of them, and i just feel original with them. 

no fakes laughters, no fake smiling to each other.

no worries friends in highschool, i still love you all <3

memories arent meant to be forgotten

bihui : yer, you keep say meiting meiting in your blog only one, ME LEH? 

NAH! YOUR NAME BIG BIG HERE LAH! BIHUI! =DD

sitting with her in class in hell s10. i know yenhui is definetaly enjoying in s5. i know rouyi is happy in p1. i know the others are okay. yeah, im okay with it too. just, really, i miss b1. but sometimes times flies so we shall just leave a happy memory about it lah. 

well, maybe s10 is like b1, at first i hell cursed the fella who kick me into b1 which i have no no no no no langsung no friends at all, but in the end i managed to find friends that are to die for. i believe that i can find friends that are to die for in s10 too. 

 
thank you fella (: yenhui, suensuen, elynn, meiting, adw, matthew and paksoong somewhere (:

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friends are so precious! 

i miss my stupid hilarious bodoh funny cute sampat class! ):

i miss elephant, rhino, hippo, hydrostatic, dumbo, PATRICK TAN MEITING! ya lah, hijau lah hijau lah. STILL, UNGU ROCKS THO! HEHE! she thinks i am cute. yes, meiting, i know that u know im cute, HAHAHA. okay, self-esteem woh as yenhui said. but memang, this is the truth. hehehe. she is the funniest kawaii girl i met. okay, cut the kawaii. lol. the feelings without her in class is so so so weird, never absent. OH MEITING, U GOT THE FULL ATTENDANCE CERT. wtfs. hahaha. BEST KT IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD. altho she is kinda dumb sometimes, but still cute tho. love love love love her. CRY MEITING WHEN U SAW THIS. and and and AND! MY SUPER MAPLE LOVER PARTNERRRRR!! x)

i miss my sei daibi, ban cute, ban yeng, emotional, funny, specs girl, sampat, OYSTER HOO YENHUIIII! miss miss miss miss MISSSSSS YOUUU! yesterday, this girl, SUDDENLY JUST POP OUT IN FRONT OF THE SHOP! I WAS SO FREAKING SHOCK! FREAKING! and i was so happy i fly towards her. hehe. AND, SHE MISS ME TOO. I DONT CARE, SHE MISS ME AND I KNOW THAT SHE KNOW AND I KNOW AND WE KNOW. MUAHAHHAA. sometimes she get super emotional, sometimes she get hyper! emotion rollercoaster. my fulltime listener, i dont care she thinks im annoying or what, my fulltime consoler, i also dont care cause somehow her consoling isnt that good also ;p but at least she tired HOR?! my fulltime patient, i dont care dont care whether does she want me to console her. even if she doesnt want it, I WILL SIT BESIDE HER AND ANNOY HER ALOT UNTIL SHE LET ME CONSOLE HER! x) and of course, my fulltime FRIEND. BESTFRIEND! right? yenhui? I LOVE YOU! U ALSO CRY LAH! HAHHAHA! 

i miss my supercrazaaaay partner, "jom pergi toilet", " i hate sharmini", me and yenhui's third person, MEOWMEOW TAN ELYNN! crazzaaaaaaay this word suits her most, but she always say that im crazy but she also crazy one loh. haha. yanxin's yenhui and me punya third? FOURTH person. lol. joking lah. super duper looks like a cat, especially when she do the :3 face. *round enough hor elynn* x) WE LOVE UNGU! but i love ungu more. hahahahahha x)

i miss paksoong and dingwei's quarrels. both of them super daugei one lah. hahhaha. what also can do one. their apperance cheated u all. hahaha, both of them can quarrel about ANYTHING! lol, then that dingwei always ejek paksoong then start the quarrel again. haha. then me ah elynn ah all also will laugh one. 

i miss wnf =x. she might be super annoying. but, i will remember her. she is the first teacher that slapped my face. wtf. and she pulled my hair. double wtfs. and she hit my hand. triple wtfss. and she complaint about me saying that im not efficient. wtf wtf wtf wtfss. and she FORCED me to pass up my absents letter. fyper wtfsss. till here, i dont miss her anymore. maybe i will change to : i will REMEMBER WNF! 

i miss the clock in my class. 

eh shit, how could i forgot to type this. I MISS YANXIN! haha, i wonder if she is back from taiwan? hmm, i still haven got the chance for thanking her for giving me the birthdaty present. and, many many many super super funny stupid daugei fights between me and yenhui is happened because of her. lol. YENHUI HOR? hhahaa.

i miss the chalk that i used to draw on the blackboard with yenhui meiting and elynn?

i miss the way "maths god" doing their maths.

i miss THE PLACE I SITTED! and the peoples around me of course. *wink*

i miss KH ROOM! PN WEEEEEEEEEEE! SUPER CUTE TEACHER! could be emotional, but pregnant women mah. but she's cute tho. haha

i miss PN LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ONE OF THE BEST MATHS TEACHER! LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE HER! and her teaching style. 

i miss those time when we go find en chan. OH! EN CHAN! U STILL HAVEN RETURN MY PHOTO YET! EN CHAAAAAAN! SHIT! I TOTALLY FORGOT! HOW HOW HOW? SHIIIIIIIT.

i miss form3 just like i miss form2 and form1 AND STANDARD SIX! ): 

and and, i dont even have pictures that is JUST ONLY ME AND THEM. SO FREAKING SAD. i feel happy but sad when im typing this post, so many memories lah. just dont really want it to be end, everything will change if we are not in the same class, TEN CLASS WEY, how to same class? hope lah, hope lah.

i dont like this, it ALWAYS happen every year, every single in secondary school. if hor, next year not same class means form5 also not same class, tak bagus lah. at least let me same class with uhm someone lah, yenhui? or anyone lah. hope hope hopeeee! itu sei rouyi sei serena sure go art stream one, what about sei meiting? she so shock when she heard no sub-science. haha. i dont want all this to end so fastt. 

and i realised this is a super long post. miss miss miss 3b1! (:

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oreta awai tsubasa, kimi wa sukoshi..

stupid msn! stupid msn! STUPID MSN! i cant on it lah. wth. 

just came back from work! PUA ROUYI! I DONT CARE TOMORO! U MUST COME! IF NOT, U WILL RAPE URSELF IF I DIDNT SAW U! ;D 

 
MONKEYYY! x) cutee! just like me!

working at a bear shop? CUTEEE! omg those clothes SO DARN FREAKING CUTEEEEE! :D :D most of the bears are cute lahhhhhhh. BUT HOR! THE CAT SO UGLY! SO SO SOOO UGLY! lol, im insulting my own shops stuffs. AND THE SUPER K YENG BUNNY! OMG! SO SO SO SO K YENG! AND AND THE MOST SCARY PART IS THE K YENG BUNNY WHICH IS SO SO SO K YENG IS MORE EXPENSIVE THAN THE CUTEEEE BEARS! lol. wth.

hihi! 

GO PYRAMID TOMORO AND MEET SIOW CHAN WAI THE HUMAN BEAR? is that thing call mascot? or what? LOL. whatever lah. so, WHENEVER U SAW A BEAR WALKING HERE AND THERE AND BAN KAWAIIIDESU, JUST HIT IT! HAHHAHHAHAHA! HAHAHAHAHAH! 

working with chingying, siow, and a 19years old girl, crystal. she is pretty, but too bad, she smokes, A LOT! she looks so guai, so innocent and doesnt look like she is that kind of person that smokes. but its okay lah, as long she doesnt smoke in front of me can ady. 

AND AND HOR, lol. today, i was nearly get buried by bears. cause hor the stockroom is so darn freaking small, which our stock is so darn freaking big and so freaking damn alot, but i need to take one of the things out, so i need to climb up to those stock to take some others stock. fuuh. THEN. when i climbed back down, the big stocks is like going to fall, so i need to arranged them. THEN. suddenly, all the bears behind me just started fall down. one packet... two packet.... LOL. then, OH SHIT! HELP ME! AHHHH! lol. 

i learn how to stuff bears, i learn how to how to how to how to, uhm, i cant think about other things ady. hmmmm, OH! I LEARN HOW TO WAKE UP EARLY, BY MY OWN! SO BANGGA! then, i know how to, uhm, uhm, uhm, i dont know still got what lah. 

i got alot of things to say. lol. too many things happened ady. HAHAHAHA!

need to wake up super early tomoro, and now is 1am, AND I HAVEN BATH. i know, im a dirty person, but WORK MAH. x)

just got the pics from changy!  altho, its kinda late, but nvm still (:(: 

17/10 ; friday
the day after geografi paper! PMR IS OVER! only got the pictures after met up with serena at the ice rink. so wont be that much pictures. 

 
serena ; engsin ; me

 
chenny ; me

 
me ; huili

 
kawaiidesu! wtf = =

20/10 ; monday
went pyramid with rouyi, carmen, serena, and ken.  ate pizza. around three, went ice skate, ken pergi cari kerja. then after that  ken and weiwei poped out, and join us to skate, tetapi itu ken emo sahaja. hmm, AND. me carm and serena was suppose to ask this guy, this singlet guy to teach us, but none of us dare to talk to him. so, failed lah the mission. then, walk around, ken bought kampai and i drank a lil only. = = then,  i  forgot what we do adi lah. memory lost. some pictures of it. 
 

carm ; roy ; me. checking ken phone out! x)

rouyi ; weiwei. ALCOHOL! 

 
serena's fav! right?

 
hor, kena stalk! 

23/10 ; thursday
hahha, after pmr going school banyak boring lah. so, this is what we did .

hehehee, banyak sampat x)

serena's society! 

serena's equation.

serena's anti love life equation! haha. 

the third step : revenge! + my peace sign!

kharwei's CHEER! heeehs.

MUAHAHAHHAH! X)

DOUBLE HAHAHAHAH! sampat! x) x)

chua guodong's version! HAHA!

25/10 ; saturday
went out with... *check out this at last two post* lazy to write again.

kim gary : 

 
chua promoting the water? haha. 

 
weiwei ; me sticking out my tougue. ;p

 
rouyi. posing. haha. 

 
me ; chaoyan. looking at the bill ; counting money!

 
all the one bucks and MONEY! haha, my favoutie (:

after movie, lepak in the mall.

 
hahah, i found the way to go in! (:

jusco :

 
small kids want them too? 

money money money, always crazaaayyy!

its 00:46am. and i just woke up. x))

i was suppose to skip school today, but i need to go kl to have the 10bucks/h job. lol. so, went to school. i really didnt plan to met up lll and help her to do stuffs. but, unfortunetly, when i was finding chingying, she saw me and called me = = wth. 

and i tot that i was suppose to type those 5pages ONLY. but, in stead of five pages, i think is 15pages! = = wth wth. after school, went kl with chenlynn chingying chongsheng & sis zhicheng valerie and lotsa more.

took lrt to met up that guy, change to monerel to that office, walk damn alot, and finally we reached the office. and, its some bank kewangan blah blah negara something. woah, we, underage ppl, working for the bank, or whatever it is. wth wth wth. after the briefing, done some trying, and THIS IS FUN! =D its so easy peeesy, well, for the sample one lah, i dont know how hard will it be when the real ones come, BUT, we just need to check some stuffs, and one page cost 0.05cents, AND ITS SO EASY! OMG! *cheeeesy grins!* 

after that, took monorel to bandaraya, change to lrt headed to taman jaya. THEN, IT RAINS! kesian me and chingying ran from the lrt station to amcorp to take taxi. sorry lah, cause u in all this trouble. but, after awhile her mum rang and tell her that she is coming. x) 

in the car, her mum nagged a lil lah. but, very cute kind of nag. x)) traffic jam, slept in her car, tired weyy. i just hope that my mum could come back faster. I WANNA WORK LAH. ya lah, i banyak fatt qin hon lah. x)

reached home around 7. tired sial. sleep sleep sleep until now only wake up. heeehs. and im gonna continue to sleep now. haha. 

so emo can die =X

as carmen says, so *blank* can die. 

uhm, basically did nothing today. helping pnlee to type stuffs, then watch housebunny, then went back home, sleep.

after dinner, stoned in front of the comp only. chat with changy, dia mendorong saya memperemokan saya lah. jadi, tak tau kenapa, saya tak ada emotion adi. okay, bahasa pasar =.= then now, im super emo adi. emo is not my thing lah, but tak tau kenapa saya emo sangat sekali. 

hmm, well, i promised to tell someone something today, but ended up i was late. yeah, thanks to the stupid fire, i cant explain everything, i cant do my nilam job properly, and it ruined my image. wth. 

then, helped wnf to tie books. at first, i tied like two rounds one. but she said, dont need lah, one round can adi. so i tie one round lah. then, she complaint that i tie until very loose. double wth. 

after recess, helped pnlee do to some stuff then FLY TO SUNWAY, with carmen rouyi serena ken chingying. then, went back home, choose clothes for the both of them, changed, take a bath, then FLY BACK TO SUNWAY. 

went there, met both of them. went skate, AND. FIND KAMPAI! omg, me and carmen are like desperato. yeah, ask her for more details what we did. T.T i wan kampai! and, im not a bad girl. lol wth. 

uhhh

my room, its a disaster. 

my mum had bought this super big giant huge large table back on the first day of pmr. and i didnt touch the book on that day, luckily its science and english only. 

so from that day, my room its had changed 360degree. totally changed. the bedsheet, the old computer table gone, decoratings, and all my stuff are on the floor, I GOT NO PLACE TO PUT LAH. 

thanks to my mum, i found out alot of stuff that are missing. and words that keep coming out from my mouth when i arranging stuff are always " oh, when did i got this?" "OOO, I FOUND YOU, FINALLY" "im still keeping THIS? i tot i threw it away?". LOL. 

and i had packed for like 2days already, but my stuffs, are like infinity, i cant pack finish one lah. i kinda regret for buying that many stuff, well, nvm, i love them too. heeehs.

and after i cleared all this things, I NEED TO GO IKEA! 

the reply

im very tired, yes i am. but, i cant sleep. 

well, i had settle the things that i should do. well, its kinda weird but im sure this feelings will go away. yeah, positive! 

am i doing the right thing? am i being cruel? why am i caring so much? all this questions keep poping up in my head. but, i know, i wont regret. words i said wont be taken back. 

the answer i gave may not be the one u wanna hear, but its the best i could give. 

currently stuck with, 我難過 

那一年默默無言 只能選擇離開
無邪的笑容已經 不再精採
你害怕結局所以 拼命傷害
說是我擋住你的 美好未來 

你堅決 不希望我等待
我便默默的讓你走開
如今你 受了傷回來
叫我如何接受這安排 

我難過的是
放棄你 放棄愛 放棄的夢被打碎 忍住悲哀
我以為 是成全
你卻說你更不愉快 

我難過的是
忘了你 忘了愛 盡全力忘記我們 真心相愛
也忘了 告訴你 失去的不能重來

wait, listening to this song doesnt mean im emo lah. 

tomoro, im gonna make more nice cupcakes to prove them wrong. know why? cause im kia su. very.  AND I JUST CALLED MEITING, our conversation is like below.

meiting : hello?

jialing : sei meiting! u got yenhui's phone onot? her chinese berapa markah? I WANNA KNOW! 

meiting : same marks like u gua. 

jialing : really ah? u leh? 

meiting : lose to u lah. happy onot? 

okay, saya sudah  interpret data kamu adi sei meiting. U WILL PROBABLY TRICK ME ONE OKAY. SO, dont get so happy first. see tomoro if i know u win me, U DIE! 

oh, three times. me carmen DID IT AGAIN! THE SAME ROUTINE FOR THREE TIMES. but we changed from lrt to bus. lol. and my leg punya blister gets bigger and bigger means painer and painer. but my leg not pain adi woh, just tired la. tomoro mps sudah nak tamat liao. i had so much fun lah. altho is very tiring but i enjoyed it. AND MOST IMPORTANT, I CAN TOUCH ALOT OF $$$$. MY FAVOURITE THING. HAHA. 

i want a mps next year :)

oops, i did it again

我不想承认也不想否认，怎办? 

YES, I DID IT AGAIN! KL AGAIN! AND MY LEG'S PAINx2! 

thank you yenhui for giving me A BOW?! lol. DAMN IT, SCREWED SCIENCE I HATE PAPER2. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY THE HACK I SCREWED EVERY SUBJECT'S PAPER2. DAMN IT! I HATE U PAPER2. 

DIE U MEITING WIN ME ADI LOH. WIN ADI LOH. and this means U MUST BUY PATRICK! MY CHINESE WONT WIN U ONE LAH. MY BM SCREW IT. MY BI SHIT IT. SO BUY PATRICK AND U DIE! 

im very tiredx2. my leg is very pain. and u know what, i just came back from pyramid to buy ribbons. lol. IM VERY TIRED but i cant sleep. my annoying brother is having moral tomorrow and he keep " sikap bertanggungjawab yang boleh menimbulkan kepercayaan dan keyakinan orang lain - amanah "  AND OTHERS LAH. 

DAMN U SCIENCE I DONT WANNA BE CARELESS ANYMORE! DAMN U! DAMN ME! im just so damn stupid. 

memorable stuff that happened today. 

- in the bus, there was this guy who was reading the newspaper, and that bus is surely packed! is like boobs to boobs and ass to ass one u know. so i dont know that the guy was reading the newspaper, so, i wanted to hold the chair, but i dont know, I REALLY DONT KNOW, that i actually put my hand over his newspaper. i only realise it when serena told me. banyak funny and yu lah. lol

- we wanted to take taxi but the taxi was actually going to ipoh chicken rich to eat. lol

- we bought 20 plushies and it sold out in within 2hours. wth. and we tot kena stolen. but we now also dont know whether we sold it or kena curi lah. cause banyak orang buy mah. FORM1 AND FORM2 ROCKS!

- my bro studied moral. lol.

- we got super high during afternoon's recess. OMG. i got to repeat myself this. THEY ROCKS!

- my leg is so tired and pain but i still walk to buy ribbon. and im still bloging here. CLAPS FOR MYSELF. 

okay lah, if i suddenly remember something i will add one lah. byebye 

everytime i got effected by emoness, im sure that i will have fever, i dont know why. 

okay, i dont like this feeling. i found out SOMETHING. I HATE THIS. IT ALWAYS HAPPEN. ALWAYS. DAMN. 

why am i torturing myself? like paksoong said : aiyoh, mongchacha, dont emo lah, u look like ah po when u are emo. OH GOD. even paksoong the emo king is telling me not to emo. so, to make myself dont look like AH PO i pretend like nothing is happening, but, i know, im lying to myself, faking a smile. 

I HATE THIS. I REALLY DO! 

okay, i dont wanna know what did i just did up there.

but, eugene poh! how many times i saw u already ah. i think six times man.  fuuuh. but, thank god everything went okkaaaaaay. but i swear this was my first and last time! 

and once again, im a light bulb. haha. 

AHHHHHHHHHHH, I CANT STOP THINKING WHAT I DID UP THERE! GOD! HELP ME! 

hello, im back.

today i got this ultimate sick. lol. at first, i wanna thanks yenhui banyak banyak. she teman me to the tolilet, she help me to open the door, she help me to call my mum although she failed, she teman me at the pbsm room, she help me to buy tissue, and many more. THANK YOU!

next is rouyi, hahha. donkey that said if i dont go home, me no friend friend you. sang stupid songs that doesnt make sense. lol.

then yanxin! T.T she stayed at the class to teman me. YES, ME! NOT YOU YENHUI! bwahahaha. then, meiting that told sivanes how sick i am. lol. and i bet she will screw me tomorrow. muahahahahha. me and yenhui told many things to jeeseng. muahhahahha. yes, i know im very evil. 

most of all, thanks mama for fetching me back =D 

love you guys. 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

okay, deep breath.

my day start with a sunshine, i woke up happily, as in got smile on my face one leh. then aunty came with that stupid old junk bus. then its starting to turn cloudy, i slept at seni period and woke up at english period. then, i just cant find my english paper! then i beh song adi! my NEW G1, NEEEEW ONE, TOTALLY NEEEEW ONE, DROPPED ON THE FLOOOOR! ROAR! and worst of all, tak dapat diguna lagi.

breathe in, breathe out.

okay, then it was recess, still cloudy. then i just dont know why i suddenly got this high kei mood. so i turn high kei and bully elynn. i keep laughing at her height, haha. then i really started to annoy her. at first, she was okay, but after awhile, she really hates me, i think that i really annoyed her too much, haha. but everything turns okay before after school.  

oh, i forgot, i keep saying I LOVE YOU. haha. i said to engsin rouyi serena elynn yenhui yanxin matthew paksoong leongweisheng grace lohsinyi jieshern suen chaiyeeling chueyee chuahwilson ziling weiwei keqian an indian guy a lkt member wongnyuetfung carmen huili chenlynn yeeteng stairs firehose door rubbishbin sky sun and last but no least, the evil witch TAN MEITING! T.T

TAN MEITING, the evil one that broke my heart, the only one that broke my heart. i said i loveyou, and she replied me " aiyah, i know u love me lah, but i dont love you lah, go die lah " ahhhhh, heart broken. *sniff sniff * T________T 

 

CHONG KEN LOOOOOONG! 

dont look at me the rajin girl, look at matthew! hahhahaha!

YES, IM THE TALLEST! MUAHAHAHHA! 

oooooo, maple can play adi, ciao. 

im tired about all of this, please stop it. 

why cant we live happily, why cant we just live without any conflict, why cant we just live without any sad things happening, why, why, why?

i thought that all of this will just stop, but it didnt. its just like a knife in my heart, it will never go away and you just keep pushing it deeper for every words u said. 

do u know how pain is that? 

if time can go backwards, i wish that nothing had happen. nothing. 

when im having this hard time, who is there for me, one is there in the cinema, three of them are sleeping, one is there with her bf, damn I cant fine anyone! 

gah, what a stupid day. 

i wanna go diving after pmr! anyone wanna teman me? =D haha

today was simply fun at the last period when all the teachers where out for their photoshoot.

meiting and elynn sprayed water all over my pinafore. 

in the end, elynn yang banyak untung sekali. 

maple leaves, i like. 

meiting, yenhui, matthew curse,

jia bu chu, means nobody will marry u, had set me in control of myself, well, a bit. 

cause usually i will hit her without noticing.

so, matthew and yenhui keep saying that no guys will marry me. evil.

but, but, buuuuuuuut, 

im not that bad lah. 

hmph. 

the more i deny it, the more i fall for it.